Its been a long time since i felt really bad. I have written here for a long time. Maybe i really don’t feel that bad as much as I did before. Or i just rant less now... maybe because i know that there are more important things to be done in life than ranting. Whats the harm if I keep it all to myself? What good do you get anyway from crying your heart out and telling someone what bothers you over and over again when they don’t even know what to do? Really? Its not as if it will all go away if you say out loud whats killing you inside, right? So why bother dragging someone else to listen to all your rants and pains? Saying it out loud makes you realize what exactly is your problem. Saying it out loud makes you think more of solutions. Saying it out loud makes you admit the things you can’t accept. Saying it out loud makes you realize who actually listens.

I wanted to tell (all of) you...
I'm staying as far away as I can from (all of) you coz I'm having nightmares, seriously, of (all of) you. It scares the s#*% out of me, seriously.
No one understands.
You'll just think I'm crazy. Maybe I am.

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